hold nothing back.

my parents would sometimes just take some time to listen to me. to see were i’m coming from. to put themselves in my shoes.  Being a teenager isn’t as easy now-a days. The pressure of Trying to do well in school, the peer pressure that surrounds us on a daily basis, the thoughts of all these insecurities.  I wish that they wouldn’t raise their voices so soon,when im just simply trying to explain myself.  These thoughts than run through my mind,when you yell at me, man they make me feel really low.  if only you guys knew…i feel like if i say sorry,scratch that i know if im just going to apologize your just going to respond with a “no sorry not enough” & if i don;t say sorry your just going to respond with a “You don’t even bother to say sorry” I wish you saw the tears i shed,from all this lowness and self-doubt.  I honestly do try my best at everything, and no matter what i do ITS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH for you guys.  I’m not perfect, i wish you understood that. Being called worthless isn;t excatly music to my ears,it’s pain to my heart.  I feel like all i do now a days is nothing but disappoint you two. When we fight i feel like it’s me against the world, i feel like no matter what wrong or right i do…there’s nothing i can do to stop you guys from yelling or getting angry with me.  I wish you guys understood my mind set on things, maybe then you’d be more understanding with why i am the way i am.  I know you guys want the best for me, but maybe if you guys gave me a chance to really show you what mature young lady i am, then i’d like to think you guys guys would be proud of the daughter you raised.  I wish you guys were there for me more often,i’m not asking for all the attention now, i just feel a sense of loneliness at times.  I wish you guys knew how much i respect and love you guys, i mean you brought me in this world.